Okay, let me start off by saying: I WANT A CIGARETTE!!!!! This is the worst that I've wanted one since I quit smoking. Almost bad enough to make me actually consider smoking. But not quite ... it would take a heck of a lot to do that (because I'm stubborn, of course). Most of today has been bad. Errgggg I want a smoke. I won't, but this is really bad over here :-(
So the rest of last night went okay. It was the first night back into our regular routine. I found myself hurrying to eat dinner to keep pace with my husband, who liked to smoke right after our meal. Then I'd stop, remember that I don't smoke anymore, and slow down to fight the craving.
I keep hearing people say that Chantix gives them the odd dreams. Well, I already have very odd, very vivid dreams. I have for as long as I can remember, but apparently it's climbing to a new level now. My husband had to wake me up last night because I was singing "Rudolf the Red-Nosed Reindeer" in my sleep! The remarkable thing is, apparently I knew the names to all the reindeer -- which, if you ask me, I wouldn't be able to tell you.
Anyways, I'm ending this with REALLY needing a smoke. I want one, bad. I still appreciate the support -- I know that my husband is quitting too, but he doesn't like to talk about it, he keeps it in his head, because otherwise it makes him crave one. Or something like that. So thanks for being here for me.
One more thing, can someone help me? I really want a Quit Meter banner, but I can't find one that works. Http://www.QuitMeter.com seems to have went down the day I quit smoking. And all of the other stuff I find is broken. Any suggestions? I could use one of these for inspiration. Heh... perhaps I need to make my own, huh? I'll consider it ;-)